okay i know i said i wont go online school reopens , but ah who cares .
i feel that i need to say goodbye to 08 . right here , in wordpress . now . cos i’ll be busy the whole day tml .
okay 08 is a year where many things happened in my life . lots of bitter plus sweet stuff this year . so im going to apologise or congratulate and all crap here . so watch out . its going to be a looooooooooooong post ! 😀
okay first things first . its been bugging me this few days . i want to say sorry to syiqin and akidah for making things turn out this way . yeah you guys know how things are now . idontknow . it just happened like so sudden . for a moment its like this , the next , its different . i cant explain it with words itself . its too much . yeah we’ll all be in different classes next year . so we wont not talk to each other even when we’re in class . beside each other in quadrangle also .
k next . mum left us this year . she didnt tell me that she was going to leave us forever . atleast she could give us some signs that she was already leaving us . she left with silence . when i woke up , she was already trying hard to breathe . no communications were there between her and any of us . only the sounds of quraans and the adults asking her to say her last prayers before she go . but whyyyyyyyyyy ? she could hold on there a litle longer . just put up with all those bad cells in the bodies . oya . i found this book called the CANCER SURVIVORS . i wonder if any of the stories are true . bullshit . i missed those days . the complete family days . a member down in our family ; a sibling down out of 13 siblings ; an advisor ; a lover ; a listening ear . we’ve lost all that ibu . now who do i turn to ? no one understands me right now .
ayahciksamiqahhaidar . thanks all for the guidance and support you’ve all given and showed me after ibu left us . you guys gave me confidence to carry out my responsibility as a sister . but how i hope life could go back to how it was .
nana . thanks for being my closest friend . i know things will change next year . but i really hope it dosent . people will change . the situation we are at now will change too . yeah although at times we dont really agree with each other . or we have different views about others . but that dosent make our friendship ties break apart . i want to thank you for understanding my situation and respects me for who i am now . 😀
i want to thank those people who had tolerated me through all the projects that im involved in this year . the TLLM , phyllislionelfengwei . yup i know ive been a bossy person . and calling and calling you guys up most of the time to discuss about the last minute stuff and meeting up almost everyday of our june holidays . and spent our money too travelling all the way to macperson just for a project . and sorry fengwei cos we’ve all made a mess in your parent’s room when we were gluing and cutting all the strips of paper for the board . and the other members whom ive shouted at cos you guys were playing too mush computer games or counterstrike while the rest were busy with the project . MUSIC , hamidahkidahkinnadilsaifulmahdhirfarid . i know i havent been a responsible asst. director . not being there for most of the meetings or filming or editings . yeah i wasnt even there when you guys submitted the video . but i guess none of you ignored me or told me right in the face thats i wasnt responsible enough to be holding the role of a asst. director . but behind me , only god knows what you guys said about me . hah .
hamidahxiaoyuanamcarissahuihui , thanks for being there for me for the last few weeks of school . you guys gave me strength to move on with my life after i thought i didnt have anyone else to depend on , after that incident . 😀
and 2D , thanks for being part of my life for 2 years . through thick and thin .
those reading this please acknoledge . 😀
goodbye 08 , hello 09 .
i hope 09 will be a start of something exciting , and i shall open up another new chapter in my life .
and leave the past behind ; get on with life .