Pre-warning: this is going to be a pretty lengthy one.
The day I anticipated after 3 months is finally here today, but why is it that I don't feel as satisfied as I should be? No doubt, I am really relieved that university life is over (I hope!) for me because really this has got to be the MOST tiring semester for me with assignments right from the first few weeks of school right to the very end of the term and with a few days apart to my first paper.
I didn't get to breathe the whole of this semester, really. I ditched my friends who were trying to set a date with me to celebrate my birthday but I just had to reject ALL of them, because I was too overwhelmed with projects. It's either I was busy with group meetings or I was just rushing for datelines.
Just when I was about to finally catch up with one of my really close friends after 8 years, weeks before her wedding, I had to say no to her last minute wedding preparation requests because everytime she asked me out on her off day to get some last minute things, I was always in the middle of my group project. I think that's the saddest opportunity I've lost this semester because now that she's married, I know that we probably won't be the same again.
That aside, this semester is one of the most challenging one thus far and it's the semester with the most irregular set of moods every single day. Too many good and bad things happened over the course of this semester that I think will remain the most memorable to me, at least. I learnt the most about myself and about the people around me this semester and I'm glad I have come to a realization about the people I meet everyday, just so that I can set a boundary around them.
Despite having learnt the true nature of the people around me, even those people I considered my friends, I am glad that there is at least one friend who is always always on the same page as me. I don't know how, but it's interesting how we always have the same thoughts and opinions about assignments, people, exams and everything else. It really feels good to have a friend who is constantly looking out for you and having the same opinions as you 99.999999% of the time.
I honestly won't know how I'd survive this semester (and uni life too) without this friend of mine because I literally spent the most of my uni life with her, right from the start when we both failed our marketing module. I guess it's a blessing to fail marketing after all, because I am really really blessed to have gone through our major modules together.
Not sure if you're reading this but yes Emily, it's you I'm talking about. Thank you for everything, my friend. I realised I don't even have a picture w you okay :<
But ofc, here's to my other precious friendships I've made throughout my uni life too, especially my two marketing girls who wants to get uni life over and done with as much as I do. I'm so blessed for all the people around me for always giving me encouragement to press on with what I'm doing and making me realize that it will all be worth it in the end.
Now that exams are finally over, I think I can start to think about the next chapter of my life. Or is it too soon yet? I'm just really hoping that I pass all my modules this sem bc really, I don't want to retake anything. I feel like I haven't done my best but I definitely have given my all.
For a person who is as lazy as me, I am surprised I (almost) conquered uni life. I mean I don't even have much interest in studies but I'm so glad I've made it this far. Now that I'm really in the final lap, I just want to be greedy and hope that I clear all my modules once and for all.
For now, I'll just leave my fate to the Almighty and let Him decide what is best for me. You've done well dear self. You've done well.